Prom is ONE week away. I am in such a rut. I've been binge/ purging every morning at breakfast and then going to the gym and burning around 750 calories (not enough to make up for most of my binges.) And then i do the same thing the next day. And prom is one fucking week away. So far this morning I've eaten 2 granola bars, a rice crispie square, a life style dinner, an apple and a bole of fruit loops. I've purged once and I'm about to again, and then I'm off to the gym. I am such a bulimic. I hate my fat, enormous disgusting self and I want to die. However, the according to the scale I've lost 4 lbs? I don't really care. I'm way too huge.